Yavin 4

And so I have made my third video - this time GinKira clip for Stokrot's and mine Marigold Series, still in progress. You can watch it here: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=96gacEskBRI
If you like, that is.

Last night the weather started to change. In the morning it was about -5, now it's below -12. Tomorrow it's going to be -20 Celsius degrees. What's even worse, the snow has fallen - not very much, but enough. I hate snow.

1. My notebook is 5 years old. When I restart it, it takes about 10 minutes: 5 for shutting the system, and 5 for opening it again.

2. For one week now I have been trying to buy DOVE shampoo. Yesterday I noticed I had bought a conditioner instead (after using it 2 times already). Today I bought... a conditioner, too. I am blind, that's for sure. Or it's starting dementia...

3. Today for the first time in my life my womanhood was complimented. Our poor seriously ill patient, currently secluded, praised my curves and declared he wanted to have a sexual relation with me. He strongly believed I felt the same.

Merry life of a psychiatrist.

I am back. We left yesterday right after the competition to be in Kuopio past 11 p.m. Snow has ended somewhere near Suomussalmi, that is a bit shocking. After all, it's the end of November. But hey, I don't complain. The frost is coming anyway.

It was as boring as I expected - and I was there all alone with only acquaintance of Polish journalists I don't speak with. I am glad I am home.

I can't remember when I have had such a sad name-day for the last time. Yesterday was a horrible day and today it's been only sad. Yesterday my friend announced she couldn't come to Ruka this year due to her health condition. We expected this, but we had faith 'till the very end. Unfortunately, this time it didn't turn out well. I wasn't sure if I wanted to go to Ruka alone, even though I thought a lot about this possibility, too. But then, I felt so sad not to go there... You know, Nordic Opening in Ruka is something unique. And when you used to attend it each year, it's really hard to stay at home and watch it in TV. After all, I found someone who goes there and I am leaving with him tomorrow. But I do not expect to have fun.

Yesterday, however, it felt like I was in some kind of fog. I couldn't think properly. Well, it's always like that when something unfortunate happens to me. Moreover, yesterday I overslept, 'cause on Monday evening I forgot to set my alarm... and then I woke up on Tuesday 8 a.m., when I should be already in the work. Just great. Not to mention that all the buses were late for the whole day.

And today... I am just sad. It doesn't feel like a special day... :(

No winter, no snow, no night-duties in 2 weeks. I am happy.

I translated some of my Bleach fanfics in English (very poor translation, though) and some people liked them! That's nice :) It gives me very strong motivation to translate more :)

Yesterday it was +7 C. Yeah! On Wednesday we leave with Elken to Ruka :))) Nordic Opening, inauguration of ski-jumping winter season, starts!

I am frustrated again. I am almost mad. I don't like it at all.
In work we have had a kind of hell during the whole week. People were just flooding inside. Non-stop. First it's really calm, and then suddenly in few days 50 patients come and want to the hospital. And it continues.
They are mad.
I suppose it's due to the weather - and it maddens me even more. We had snow, frost, and all the other disgusting winter conditions. Then it finished this week - being constantly over 0 Celsius, snow melting etc. It's very cloudy, the fog is almost all the time. You know, Finns believe that it's more light when there's snow. The weather is GREAT for me, really - I hate winter - so I should be happy, but I cannot when I have constantly new patients on the ward and the work like hell. Arrrrgh.

Tomorrow I am in hospital. It doesn't make me feel happy. We are going to hardly think to figure out where we can send all the new patients to, as our hospital is already full.

Winter is evil, snow is evil. No-one needs them. You can have ski-jumping without snow, too.

I have been to Helsinki for two-day symposium. It was better than I had imagined, so I am glad. And Helsinki... isn't so bad after all. It's quite beautiful city, even this time of year. And it was nice to see trams from time to time ;) You know, I come from a city about as big as Helsinki, so the feelings is well known. Even though I love my Kuopio :)))

But I'm glad I am home :)

I am sexually frustrated. I think.
Arrrgh.

Well, everyone grows up - sooner or later -_-'

I feel better, OK. I feel OK, in fact. I eat Aspirin, though, and I made an appointment to our occupational health nurse on Monday morning.

The snow fell, and now there's more of it than before. Finns actually believe there's more light when it snows... Yeah, what a beautiful illusion. I tried to draw, but it's so cloudy today I swore through most of time. It was even harder to take the pictures of those my poor doodles. I have a scanner, but I got used to taking pictures... I hate winter.

It's insane. I have been healthy for one week now, I stopped eating aspirin last weekend. Today I have a heavy headache - just like the one on Oct 7th when I fell ill. I CANNOT have one more flu. It's ridiculous. And people all over around are sick with swine flu, great...

I have written first GinKira slash fic. Not really proud of this. Only it's so hard not to write down once you have already a complete vision in your mind... More are coming.

...like when they kissed for the first time.

Go for Telanu's Tea Series.

Most of my LJ friends have posted some angsty notes. I am scared. People, take care! Life is beautiful!

I am sick, at last. Not very happy about it - but I knew it would come sooner or later. After all, everyone around me was sick.

We have the snow already! Geez! It's September, people! Where do I live??? It's some apocalypse! In northern and southern Finland it snowed - while in here we have had a thunderstorm and hailstorm today.

And while talking on theological topics - I have a new Jesus on my ward. You know, Napoleon isn't trendy anymore ;>

Okay, in last 24 hours my symphaty for Ichimaru Gin has drastically increased. First of all, I admire him in Bleach Rock Musical, that I've been enthusiastically watching since previous weekend. Secondly, yesterday I familiarized myself with Bleach Beat Collection and character songs for Gin sung by his seiyuu Yusa Kōji. Awww... I am done, completely.

I realized once again that I used to write in here only about sad things, so you can have a twisted image of me as a melancholic or pessimistic person, or something of that kind, if you please.

Today I am a bit distressed as tomorrow I am on 24-hour call. I should only *be* there and the other doctor (student) working, but she was sick today and I fear that tomorrow it will be me *doing* all the work. Terrible.

Today's chapter of Bleach is also quite depressing, even though not surprising at all. Recently I realized that there's hardly any other fictional character I would despise as much as Aizen. This psycho Muraki of Yami no matsuei is left far behind when compared with Aizen. Arrrgh.

I have made a bank transfer to a wrong account number - instead of paying my debt on credit card, I sent nearly 300 euro to my phone bill account. Go for me. I always knew Mondays are not fit for any delicate operations. Only it was Saturday - but after a night duty, too.

If they could count it as my phone bill for the next year, it would be OK. Otherwise I'd gladly have my money back. I may earn 5000 euro monthly (having netto 3000, sadly), but anyway - 300 is quite much, too!

I can't understand why all the fanfiction ideas ALWAYS come to me on Monday evenings. It's not fair. It's more unfair than Ichigo waving a mouse right under Grimmjow's nose. I constantly have problems with falling asleep, so at least on Mondays (when I am half-dead already) I hope to get to sleep sooner. But no, why.

For the first time since long time I can see a moon outside my window. It's full in three quarters (~Balcony Scene~ from Telanu's Tea Series coming immediately to mind - only I have no balcony, a pity). Perhaps it's the cause... You know, I am moon sensitive ;)

Oh, to your information - since April (5 months) I have written 16 Bleach fanfics. No comment.

It's a kind of pathetic - to be happy about coming back home from holiday.
WHEN YOUR JOURNEY FOR ONCE HAPPENS IN SCHEDULE!!!!!

If you imagine I am happy to leave tomorrow for Kuopio (six hour trip, mind it, and exactly THREE flights and FOUR airports) back from my summer holiday, you are deeply mistaken.

Let somebody hold me :(((

Rusalka strikes back!